Um, how did I get here??????

Time for some reflecting on how I got here.

After college graduation in 1999, I packed on 15lbs in about 2yrs give or take.  I guess my freshman 15 came a little late.  I did not like this extra weight at all so I started a well known diet program (a blog to come later).  I was successful and lost the weight, but it didn't stay off.  I believe it came back pretty quickly, but can't really remember.

In 2003, I was having problems in my life and really just lost focus on being healthy.  In August of that year, I decided to end an 8yr relationship with my boyfriend.  Well that freaked me out.  Dating??  At 150lbs???  So I went on another well known diet program and lost the 15lbs.  That is when I met Jeremy.  I guess after that I gave up trying to stay fit and healthy because I had my man.  HE HE HE HE!!!!

In 2005, Jeremy and I decided to move in together.  What an emotional trip that was!!!  We had our first fights then and boy was I homesick.  Not to mention that I was stuck in a dead end job and was still dealing with the death of my beloved dog China.  Well I finally decided to change jobs.  It was at this new job that I got into my next diet program. I lost the weight again and then around the same time I got fired.  I had never been fired before and  was completely beside myself.  So needless to say I went to food for my comfort.  Later on down the road I would come to realize that getting fired was the best thing that ever happened to me.

In 2007, Jeremy and I decided to move to a new location and I got a job a Delahunty Nurseries and Florist. Which I still love to this day!!! During that winter, I fell down my back stairs while I was putting Gracie out.  I didn't think much of it and just dealt with it over a few months, but then the pain got worse.   It basically hurt to move so I did as little physical activity as possible.  Then I started have sciatic pain and the doctors realized I had a slipped disk that was causing nerve damage in my left leg.  After months of being inactive, I had increased my weight to 200lbs before I went in for my surgery.  I was told at that time that I needed to lose weight or I was going to end up in a wheel chair.  Well that was it for me.  It was a little bit of a struggle to get the ball rolling, but once it did the weight came off easily.  My goal was to keep going and lose another 35lbs, but I didn't know at that point what lied ahead for me.  Now what I didn't mention is that during everything that had been going on, I had been experiencing random episodes of being violently ill.  They would last until my stomach was empty and then I felt better.  I just chalked it up to being a fluke thing and would forget about it until the next incident.

The beginning of 2009 was great.  Jeremy and I went on a wonderful vacation and I was focused on losing weight when we got back.  However, not long after we got back I had 3 people die within a few weeks of each other.  I lost it.  I decided to really indulge on junk.  This giant indulgence caused another episode of being violently ill.  Turns out I had gallstones.  So lets have another operation.  I could never seem to get back on track after that.  And then my aunt/godmother lost her battle with breast cancer at the end of 2009.  That year was a total bust.  I didn't gain though so at least I had that going for me.

After a year of hell.....well 2010 can only be better, right?  Better is an understatement.  Jeremy and I went on a wonderful trip to Costa Rica.  This is where Jeremy proposed.  Great now lets have a year long engagement and I can lose the rest of the weight.   Wrong!!!  My new dear sister-in-law wanted to go into the Peace Corps.  I would never get married without her so we decided to get married in 9 months before she left.  Plan a wedding and lose 35lbs in 9 months.  Well that's just crazy talk.  It didn't happen and I ended up staying about the same weight for another year.  But now its 2011, and there are no more excuses.  I know why I am here.  I know what my problems were. I went through dead end job after dead end job.  Well that's fixed now.  My fears (another blog for another day) have all been realized and I am ready to conquer them.    It's time to finish this once and for all!!!!!!